6 February 2007, Tuesday, 11.54am
Contradiction - Calvin Klein eau de parfum?
Stealing some time in the office to check on my journal and realised I haven't been writing since early February. Guilt flushed right through my membrane instantly. Ok, I have been busy. It's probably work stress that makes me notebook-phobia; part of my day-time is glued to the screen and replying a red sea of emails daily, that's why. And besides, during this one month absence in the net, many things happened. Like the birth of Chloe, the celebration of the Princes - Wales and France, the confinement of Eleanor, the baby shower (Chloe's) which happened last weekend, etc etc.... blah blah.... too many to name.
Like I have been telling friends after 23 January 2007, I was so conscious about me hitting 30 next 23 January. Gosh, 30, a prime age to get married with 2 kids ideally. But, I guess I'm still far from there. Not kilometres, but miles I think. Fiasco in life-planning, if you ask me. But that's alright, life is too short to think too far. Let's have more moments rather than planning. Sometimes it's too painful to even think about what's lying ahead of me. Life has never been easy for the past years, constant changes in work and family, and life.
Let's talk about moments. The latest moment i had have been.... ermm.... ground shaking? My legs turned jelly when my Superior told me he would be throwing the towel. He has always been our armour shield and amulet; protecting us from arrows and harmful paranormal. And, I really detest parting. I have been wearing this protective layer for 3 and a half years, and I felt safe. Come March, there will be a total changed battle field to fight, and also the struggle for survivor. Yikes! Dreadful. So, who moved my Cheese in the office???
The past weekend, I have my first philosophy encounter with Louis. He specialised with this subject and of course, imparting his skills in RI now, and he set a question that really made me pondered deep into each and every meaning of words. The deep thoughts of the cause of each happening and case. It's amazing to pry open my mind to think how powerful human minds can be. Our mind works like a parachute, ie, it works best when it's opened. Next meet up with Louis would be a lesson on the Golden Rules - whatever that is, for now.
Paranormal, as mentioned above, was also discussed over the weekend, with Matthew. How bizarre, I contradicted myself when I told Matt that I don't believe in afterlife but I somehow believe in paranormal. Encountered once when I was in Beijing, a very surreal one. Anyways, Matt said that's not possible to believe in what I chose to believe. I think otherwise, and Louis the Philosopher would tell me to fight for my case - but my reply was "Don't ask me why, I just believed what I said".
I have been very lethargic of late too. As if my energy has been consumed by the Mother Earth each time I set foot outside. My eyes no longer have its souls, my body kind of aches when I move too much. Health is deterioating in short. Exhaustion from sleepless nights? Perhaps. Shouted at Bryant when he accidentally slapped my faced when I was in my deep sleep last night. My nephew is turning into a cute little monster, one who makes me smile and boil at the same time. He was petrified when I shouted at him in the middle of the night of course; everyone was already in bed, except him who was still wide awake in the wee hours! And who, kept tossing and groaning on my bed, yearning for my attention. I have not been well recently, with a piercing sore throat, throbbing chronic tension headache, groggy eye lids, and the messy full bloom hair, and this explains why I was so flustered when Bryant disturbs my sleep, almost every night. With that descriptive words, how I wish it was piercing pleasure, throbbing rock hard, groggy numbness, messy and massive orgasm, instead. hahhaaa... Erotic is perhaps my Baptised name.
Counting down to Chinese New Year; I simply love this festive season when the street always comes alive suddenly, somehow. I was at Chinatown last Saturday when we realised the street was still buzzling with crowds at close to midnight! Ooh la la...... Ok, I'm not a crowd person, but I love it when the street is buzzling? Another contradiction to myself. Am I a Contradictor?
Contradiction - Calvin Klein eau de parfum?
Stealing some time in the office to check on my journal and realised I haven't been writing since early February. Guilt flushed right through my membrane instantly. Ok, I have been busy. It's probably work stress that makes me notebook-phobia; part of my day-time is glued to the screen and replying a red sea of emails daily, that's why. And besides, during this one month absence in the net, many things happened. Like the birth of Chloe, the celebration of the Princes - Wales and France, the confinement of Eleanor, the baby shower (Chloe's) which happened last weekend, etc etc.... blah blah.... too many to name.
Like I have been telling friends after 23 January 2007, I was so conscious about me hitting 30 next 23 January. Gosh, 30, a prime age to get married with 2 kids ideally. But, I guess I'm still far from there. Not kilometres, but miles I think. Fiasco in life-planning, if you ask me. But that's alright, life is too short to think too far. Let's have more moments rather than planning. Sometimes it's too painful to even think about what's lying ahead of me. Life has never been easy for the past years, constant changes in work and family, and life.
Let's talk about moments. The latest moment i had have been.... ermm.... ground shaking? My legs turned jelly when my Superior told me he would be throwing the towel. He has always been our armour shield and amulet; protecting us from arrows and harmful paranormal. And, I really detest parting. I have been wearing this protective layer for 3 and a half years, and I felt safe. Come March, there will be a total changed battle field to fight, and also the struggle for survivor. Yikes! Dreadful. So, who moved my Cheese in the office???
The past weekend, I have my first philosophy encounter with Louis. He specialised with this subject and of course, imparting his skills in RI now, and he set a question that really made me pondered deep into each and every meaning of words. The deep thoughts of the cause of each happening and case. It's amazing to pry open my mind to think how powerful human minds can be. Our mind works like a parachute, ie, it works best when it's opened. Next meet up with Louis would be a lesson on the Golden Rules - whatever that is, for now.
Paranormal, as mentioned above, was also discussed over the weekend, with Matthew. How bizarre, I contradicted myself when I told Matt that I don't believe in afterlife but I somehow believe in paranormal. Encountered once when I was in Beijing, a very surreal one. Anyways, Matt said that's not possible to believe in what I chose to believe. I think otherwise, and Louis the Philosopher would tell me to fight for my case - but my reply was "Don't ask me why, I just believed what I said".
I have been very lethargic of late too. As if my energy has been consumed by the Mother Earth each time I set foot outside. My eyes no longer have its souls, my body kind of aches when I move too much. Health is deterioating in short. Exhaustion from sleepless nights? Perhaps. Shouted at Bryant when he accidentally slapped my faced when I was in my deep sleep last night. My nephew is turning into a cute little monster, one who makes me smile and boil at the same time. He was petrified when I shouted at him in the middle of the night of course; everyone was already in bed, except him who was still wide awake in the wee hours! And who, kept tossing and groaning on my bed, yearning for my attention. I have not been well recently, with a piercing sore throat, throbbing chronic tension headache, groggy eye lids, and the messy full bloom hair, and this explains why I was so flustered when Bryant disturbs my sleep, almost every night. With that descriptive words, how I wish it was piercing pleasure, throbbing rock hard, groggy numbness, messy and massive orgasm, instead. hahhaaa... Erotic is perhaps my Baptised name.
Counting down to Chinese New Year; I simply love this festive season when the street always comes alive suddenly, somehow. I was at Chinatown last Saturday when we realised the street was still buzzling with crowds at close to midnight! Ooh la la...... Ok, I'm not a crowd person, but I love it when the street is buzzling? Another contradiction to myself. Am I a Contradictor?
posted by chilliseedz at Tuesday, February 06, 2007
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